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Ghosts of Winter’s Past

Reveries on Passage of Time and a Mercurial World

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Swarnali Mukherjee
Feb 03, 2025
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Friends, I want you to meet my old guardian, the ancient wood apple tree, once again. This time, she is laden with her abundant produce. Soon, the fruits will ripen and make fine spring drinks for us and our neighbors. My heart fills with gratitude whenever I meet her.

Namaste Friends,

The subcontinent is awakening from its short winter nap, and spring is on the cusp of bloom. Winter, like a visiting guest, is ready to leave this place in a vapid spur, and I am caught up in a melancholic daze at its withdrawal. I spent the whole winter skinny-dipping in nostalgia and worried anticipation. It was more difficult than in years prior because my mother was unwell and mostly alone—at an age when she deserved none of it.

I have been so worried and split between caregiving and working that I hardly noticed as winter passed by. And now, as it stands at the door, waving back at me, I cannot help but cry at the passage of time. It is this irrevocable loss of the limited treasure of time that awake…

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