Sending so much love to you. The only thing you owe to anyone right now is indeed that deep rest. You may think you didn't do much for your readers, but peeling and sharing these complex thoughts on grief and loss is a gift to anyone who reads this. Grief is one of the most transformative human feelings and it has to take its natural trajectory. Rest and be kind to yourself 🖤
You are such a sweet soul dear Ramona. I found you just in time and I feel so immensely grateful to be in your presence and wisdom. Thank you for holding out on me. I hope I can do the same for you when necessary. Bless you. 💜
So much beauty arises simply be being, by sharing with no other intent or purpose other than to be vulnerable--and how it builds strength as you offer it to others. Here holding a light for you always dear Swarna. 💜🕯
Thank you for always sparing so much wisdom, light, space for growth for me and each of your readers Freya. You are such a lighthouse. Thank you dear sister. 💜
Condolences and Blessings to you in this sacred time of grief. You described so beautifully the way the world keeps moving … and yet, it seems impossible that it should go on at all.
I lost my father suddenly, and I will never forget the poignant details of that time in my life. The way everything felt soft and grey, as if I might fall through the earth at any moment and be swallowed up without a care. A few years later, I look back at that time now with so much tenderness. Every painful breath was filled with so much love. Allowing myself to wallow in it, sharing it, exploring it, writing it, and feeling it deeply, I came out the other side filled joy and love for my father and a feeling of deep peace around his passing. I hope and pray you are healed by your grief in ways you never imagined, and that you experience a deep and lasting peace around the death of your father.
Every blessings to you. Thank you for sharing so vulnerably 💜✨
I have goosebumps all over Allysha. That melting into the earth feeling, I exactly feel the same way right now. I am trying to stay open and let the experience flow through me.
Thank you for sharing your experience with grief. At this point I feel a looming possibility of healing, as I hold on to every strand of tenderness, and fighting against hardening of my body and mind from the pain.
Thank you friend for finding me at this time. I look forward to get to know more of you and your writing from your stack. 💜
Grieving is all-consuming work, Swarna, and you’re doing great just being in it. So many pull away from it (for obvious reasons), but the soul fermentation that happens there is like nothing else. Allow yourself to hold that sacred thread of connection with your father, and trust that a great transformation is happening in you both. He is with you even now… 💜✨
That’s true, I have this constant feeling that he is with me all the time now more than ever. The process is all consuming indeed but grace seeps through the mundane permeability every once in a while and I feel grateful specifically in presence of compassionate and encouraging souls like you. Thanks you for finding me at this time. 💜
‘We are rivers’, I am going to chant that till it sits deeper. Loss is such a broad term, people lose all the time - countries, identities, jobs, loved ones, and pets… even losing one’s garden harvest is a huge loss. We collectively share all of these experiences of loss, yet it feels so specific. Life is strange.
Dear friend, the swirling of your emotions and beautiful writing touch me deeply. The energies dance in vibrant colour and contrast as you find your way - it just came to me to mention the singer songwriter Beth Neilson Chapman - she composed an album of music after her husband died - I found it helped me after my father died - the lyrics and melodies were bright stars for me - just like your writing xxx much love to you xxx
Dearest Ann, you have been such a bright light through my journey on substack so far and I am grateful for your wisdom and adoration you have so freely chosen to send my way. Thank you for this beautiful gift of music that you shared with me. I will hold on tight to it till ever cell of my body calls me back home. So much love to you 💜
Hi Swarnali, My introduction to you is this piece and the challenging time you find yourself in. I hope you and your mother find ease in all ways, are able to take that much needed deep rest and the days start to make more sense. Thank you for sharing.
Dear Tanya. Thank you for your thoughtful response. I hope you stop to wander around a bit and find older brighter posts in Berkana’s archive. The community here is a firebrand, hope you get to experience some of the extraordinary energy that my amazing reader base brings. 💜
Sending so much love, care, and warmth to you Swarnali. I hope you hold yourself with tenderness during this time. I hope you allow yourself to be and be-with everything that has to emerge.
Such a thoughtful reminder and beautifully strung together too. I am deeply grateful for your wisdom and presence dear Pooja. Thank you for your kindness. 💜
The wisdom is in your empty-handedness. ❤️
Such wise thought.. thank you Kimberly 💜
Sending so much love to you. The only thing you owe to anyone right now is indeed that deep rest. You may think you didn't do much for your readers, but peeling and sharing these complex thoughts on grief and loss is a gift to anyone who reads this. Grief is one of the most transformative human feelings and it has to take its natural trajectory. Rest and be kind to yourself 🖤
You are such a sweet soul dear Ramona. I found you just in time and I feel so immensely grateful to be in your presence and wisdom. Thank you for holding out on me. I hope I can do the same for you when necessary. Bless you. 💜
Beautiful writing. Sending hugs.
Hugs Charlotte. Thank you for being here. 💜
So much beauty arises simply be being, by sharing with no other intent or purpose other than to be vulnerable--and how it builds strength as you offer it to others. Here holding a light for you always dear Swarna. 💜🕯
Thank you for always sparing so much wisdom, light, space for growth for me and each of your readers Freya. You are such a lighthouse. Thank you dear sister. 💜
Condolences and Blessings to you in this sacred time of grief. You described so beautifully the way the world keeps moving … and yet, it seems impossible that it should go on at all.
I lost my father suddenly, and I will never forget the poignant details of that time in my life. The way everything felt soft and grey, as if I might fall through the earth at any moment and be swallowed up without a care. A few years later, I look back at that time now with so much tenderness. Every painful breath was filled with so much love. Allowing myself to wallow in it, sharing it, exploring it, writing it, and feeling it deeply, I came out the other side filled joy and love for my father and a feeling of deep peace around his passing. I hope and pray you are healed by your grief in ways you never imagined, and that you experience a deep and lasting peace around the death of your father.
Every blessings to you. Thank you for sharing so vulnerably 💜✨
I have goosebumps all over Allysha. That melting into the earth feeling, I exactly feel the same way right now. I am trying to stay open and let the experience flow through me.
Thank you for sharing your experience with grief. At this point I feel a looming possibility of healing, as I hold on to every strand of tenderness, and fighting against hardening of my body and mind from the pain.
Thank you friend for finding me at this time. I look forward to get to know more of you and your writing from your stack. 💜
Grieving is all-consuming work, Swarna, and you’re doing great just being in it. So many pull away from it (for obvious reasons), but the soul fermentation that happens there is like nothing else. Allow yourself to hold that sacred thread of connection with your father, and trust that a great transformation is happening in you both. He is with you even now… 💜✨
That’s true, I have this constant feeling that he is with me all the time now more than ever. The process is all consuming indeed but grace seeps through the mundane permeability every once in a while and I feel grateful specifically in presence of compassionate and encouraging souls like you. Thanks you for finding me at this time. 💜
I'm so so sorry. It sounds like hell... You express the pain and the disorientation so deeply and so beautifully, if that makes any sense.
Thank you Noha. Your presence means a lot to me. I deeply appreciate your work 💜
Much love to you, Swarnali. I appreciate your work too.
Grief does change us. We are rivers, and so are our loves and losses. ❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹
‘We are rivers’, I am going to chant that till it sits deeper. Loss is such a broad term, people lose all the time - countries, identities, jobs, loved ones, and pets… even losing one’s garden harvest is a huge loss. We collectively share all of these experiences of loss, yet it feels so specific. Life is strange.
Nia, you are one of my favourite fireflies 💜
Life is strange, and there are those losses that rip into our own hearts and take a long time to even begin to repair.
And it is very, very mutual, Swarna 🕯️🧚💚
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Dear friend, the swirling of your emotions and beautiful writing touch me deeply. The energies dance in vibrant colour and contrast as you find your way - it just came to me to mention the singer songwriter Beth Neilson Chapman - she composed an album of music after her husband died - I found it helped me after my father died - the lyrics and melodies were bright stars for me - just like your writing xxx much love to you xxx
Dearest Ann, you have been such a bright light through my journey on substack so far and I am grateful for your wisdom and adoration you have so freely chosen to send my way. Thank you for this beautiful gift of music that you shared with me. I will hold on tight to it till ever cell of my body calls me back home. So much love to you 💜
Hi Swarnali, My introduction to you is this piece and the challenging time you find yourself in. I hope you and your mother find ease in all ways, are able to take that much needed deep rest and the days start to make more sense. Thank you for sharing.
Dear Tanya. Thank you for your thoughtful response. I hope you stop to wander around a bit and find older brighter posts in Berkana’s archive. The community here is a firebrand, hope you get to experience some of the extraordinary energy that my amazing reader base brings. 💜
Thinking of you, Swarna, and sending you love as you navigate this time. 💜🕯️
Thank you John, I deeply appreciate your warmth and presence 💜
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Chris 💜
Sending so much love, care, and warmth to you Swarnali. I hope you hold yourself with tenderness during this time. I hope you allow yourself to be and be-with everything that has to emerge.
Such a thoughtful reminder and beautifully strung together too. I am deeply grateful for your wisdom and presence dear Pooja. Thank you for your kindness. 💜