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Jonathan Foster's avatar

"Am I, the daughter he birthed, also his death mother?" This is the most beautiful cycle of life sentence I've ever read. This is a powerful and touching read, Swarnali, a compassionate and beautiful read and I feel mine and your humanity through it. Your description of the complex relationship with smoking is masterful and brilliant. I want to say something to lighten your grief but I have nothing. I can only say thank you for writing this piece. Thank you :)

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Maia Duerr's avatar

I will look for you in the ark.

Thank you for another extraordinary piece of writing, Swarnali... it feels like a transmission.

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Katriena Emmanuel's avatar

Oh I feel you so deeply! Grief is so lonely. It’s been 3 months since I lost my mother, my best friend and I have so many regrets, one is not being there in her moment, like you, to hold them in their last moments. I cry every day. The grief comes in waves is the only way I can describe it. A lot harder than I ever imagined it would be to loose a parent. I know there’s nothing really that I can say to you or offer, other than you are not alone in your grief.

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